Post by PunkRockPrincess on Feb 11, 2005 14:37:59 GMT -5
Disclaimer: I do not own any rights to the song Broken. This is primarily for the use of this song fic. Nor do I own Keira Knightley or Natalie Portman.I’m just a fan of these two talented actresses. So if femslash fiction offends you, or death scenes do, then don’t read this. Also this fic contains character deaths as well. If you have a problem, I suggest you NOT to read this.
Author’s Note: In order to get a better feel of this story, one should listen to the song it’s self. I wrote in in a way that Both Keira and Natalie are singing this song. Think of it as a music video.
(Natalie’s POV)
I can’t believe you’re gone. My one and only love of my life has departed from this world in a flash of an eye. The very flame of life inside of me has flickered away. The only thing in this harsh and unforgiving world, that gave me a reason to live, the only thing of beauty that made me feel so wonderful inside was you. You gave me my life back when the harsh and bitter business of Hollywood took it away. For those few years I was my old self again. And now your gone.
Natalie;
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain away
I sit here as a trace my fingers over the picture that was taken from your brother Caleb, the picture from our trip to your home in Teddington England. Do you remember that day? It was Christmas eve and we were staying at your apartment(flat) and spending the holidays together. You gave me the diamond ring that I wore each and every single day. I was a happier person then, a lot happier than I was right now.
Natalie;
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
I wonder if you are watching me right now, a lonely spirit drifting by my side. If you are, I don’t want you to see me like this. Sad, broken inside, and completely lifeless. Please Keira…please don’t look at me.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when your gone away
Natalie; You’ve gone away, you don’t feel me here anymore.
(Keira’s POV)
I sit here with tears in my eyes as I watch you punish your self over my death my love. Natalie please, don’t do this to your self, It wasn’t your fault. I was the one who had to much to drink. I was the one who insisted on driving. You being the loving and caring person you are tried to stop me yet all I did was push you away. Now the only thing I can do is drift by your side wanting to touch you. I’m the reason for your sadness, I’m the reason for your pain. Please forgive me.
Keira;
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I want to hold you high and steal my pain away.
I want to touch you so badly Natalie my love. I want to touch you and make all your sadness go away. I want to make you feel like that young vibrant woman that you once were. I want to make you feel like the woman that once made the sun shined brighter with just a silly smile. Now right before my eyes I see you transforming into this sad and lonesome person. One without love, one with out hope in this world. And it’s my fault, It’s my fault you became this way. The Natalie I once knew has been replaced by an empty shadow…I’m so sorry….
Keira;
There’s so much love to learn
And no one left to fight
I want to hold you high and steal your pain’<br>
Natalie & Keira;
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Heaven doesn’t exist Natalie, there is no heaven without you. You are the reason that angels sing and you are the reason for making my life complete. You are the one that made my circle whole, with out you I am nothing more than a ghost within these hollow walls. I wish you can hear me tell you how much you mean to me. I would rather be a ghost wandering by your side for the rest of eternity than enter heaven with out you.
Natalie & Keira;
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
“Hey sweetie” I whisper gently as I stand near your head stone, my fingers graze over the granite and the carving of your name on the monument. I can’t believe that your body is underneath the ground, you must be so cold down their all alone, in stead of being here with me, your now gone away. I promised my self I wouldn’t cry. So much for that promise. But I know that you are in a better place now. I know that you can now rest in peace and are not bound to this world any more.
I place a bouquet of roses near your grave. As soon as my tears fell from my eyes they turn to ice from the cold weather. It’s funny, when you were around everything seem much warmer and more inviting. That time has passed now, there is no more happiness in this world for me. But I will continue to live, cause that was what I promised. And I never broke a promise to you before, and I won’t break one now. You’re an amazing woman Keira, and I will never be alone with you in my heart.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Natalie my darling, I will never be departed from you. I will always be a part of you. You have kept my soul alive because of your love. And for that I am forever greatful to you Natalie. In the short life that I have lived, I accomplished more in the 19 years that I have been alive because of you. Because of you I lived more years than anyone else. Our relationship will never be over and I will always be with you. You have made me a better woman, you have made me a better person. You brought in a brand ray of sun shine of my life. The deepest regret for me is not saying “I love you” enough. I just want to hold you Natalie, I want to be with you so badly, all the tears I cry and all the pain that I hold in my heart won’t help as I watch you continue to see your life go down hill. But you made a promise to me Nat, you promised me you would live. You promised that you will be happy. I want you to be happy Natalie, even if it means letting me go. I know we will one day be together again my love, and you know that I will always be watching over you but you must live, for me. Remember Nat, good memories can save your life.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
As I walk back home I smile to my self and look up at the bright afternoon sky that you now reside in. I smile because I have a new found hope in my heart and new strength that you have given me now. I think you must of reached me some how, I heard your words in the distance, I wanted it all to end, I wanted the pain to stop, and I wanted to feel the release of this life. But I heard you Keira, your words saved me. What seemed impossible now doesn’t seem so harsh. It will take some time and I know I will have a long road ahead, but with the strength you have given me, nothing seems hard or impossible.
I remember once you told me that the hardest thing to do in this world is to live in in. And that I had to live not for myself but for the people that I love. And that I promise to you. Cause like you told me. Good memories can save your life.
Natalie & Keira.
You're gone away; You don't feel me here anymore.
Author’s Note: In order to get a better feel of this story, one should listen to the song it’s self. I wrote in in a way that Both Keira and Natalie are singing this song. Think of it as a music video.
(Natalie’s POV)
I can’t believe you’re gone. My one and only love of my life has departed from this world in a flash of an eye. The very flame of life inside of me has flickered away. The only thing in this harsh and unforgiving world, that gave me a reason to live, the only thing of beauty that made me feel so wonderful inside was you. You gave me my life back when the harsh and bitter business of Hollywood took it away. For those few years I was my old self again. And now your gone.
Natalie;
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain away
I sit here as a trace my fingers over the picture that was taken from your brother Caleb, the picture from our trip to your home in Teddington England. Do you remember that day? It was Christmas eve and we were staying at your apartment(flat) and spending the holidays together. You gave me the diamond ring that I wore each and every single day. I was a happier person then, a lot happier than I was right now.
Natalie;
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal your pain
I wonder if you are watching me right now, a lonely spirit drifting by my side. If you are, I don’t want you to see me like this. Sad, broken inside, and completely lifeless. Please Keira…please don’t look at me.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when your gone away
Natalie; You’ve gone away, you don’t feel me here anymore.
(Keira’s POV)
I sit here with tears in my eyes as I watch you punish your self over my death my love. Natalie please, don’t do this to your self, It wasn’t your fault. I was the one who had to much to drink. I was the one who insisted on driving. You being the loving and caring person you are tried to stop me yet all I did was push you away. Now the only thing I can do is drift by your side wanting to touch you. I’m the reason for your sadness, I’m the reason for your pain. Please forgive me.
Keira;
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I want to hold you high and steal my pain away.
I want to touch you so badly Natalie my love. I want to touch you and make all your sadness go away. I want to make you feel like that young vibrant woman that you once were. I want to make you feel like the woman that once made the sun shined brighter with just a silly smile. Now right before my eyes I see you transforming into this sad and lonesome person. One without love, one with out hope in this world. And it’s my fault, It’s my fault you became this way. The Natalie I once knew has been replaced by an empty shadow…I’m so sorry….
Keira;
There’s so much love to learn
And no one left to fight
I want to hold you high and steal your pain’<br>
Natalie & Keira;
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Heaven doesn’t exist Natalie, there is no heaven without you. You are the reason that angels sing and you are the reason for making my life complete. You are the one that made my circle whole, with out you I am nothing more than a ghost within these hollow walls. I wish you can hear me tell you how much you mean to me. I would rather be a ghost wandering by your side for the rest of eternity than enter heaven with out you.
Natalie & Keira;
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
“Hey sweetie” I whisper gently as I stand near your head stone, my fingers graze over the granite and the carving of your name on the monument. I can’t believe that your body is underneath the ground, you must be so cold down their all alone, in stead of being here with me, your now gone away. I promised my self I wouldn’t cry. So much for that promise. But I know that you are in a better place now. I know that you can now rest in peace and are not bound to this world any more.
I place a bouquet of roses near your grave. As soon as my tears fell from my eyes they turn to ice from the cold weather. It’s funny, when you were around everything seem much warmer and more inviting. That time has passed now, there is no more happiness in this world for me. But I will continue to live, cause that was what I promised. And I never broke a promise to you before, and I won’t break one now. You’re an amazing woman Keira, and I will never be alone with you in my heart.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Natalie my darling, I will never be departed from you. I will always be a part of you. You have kept my soul alive because of your love. And for that I am forever greatful to you Natalie. In the short life that I have lived, I accomplished more in the 19 years that I have been alive because of you. Because of you I lived more years than anyone else. Our relationship will never be over and I will always be with you. You have made me a better woman, you have made me a better person. You brought in a brand ray of sun shine of my life. The deepest regret for me is not saying “I love you” enough. I just want to hold you Natalie, I want to be with you so badly, all the tears I cry and all the pain that I hold in my heart won’t help as I watch you continue to see your life go down hill. But you made a promise to me Nat, you promised me you would live. You promised that you will be happy. I want you to be happy Natalie, even if it means letting me go. I know we will one day be together again my love, and you know that I will always be watching over you but you must live, for me. Remember Nat, good memories can save your life.
Natalie & Keira
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
As I walk back home I smile to my self and look up at the bright afternoon sky that you now reside in. I smile because I have a new found hope in my heart and new strength that you have given me now. I think you must of reached me some how, I heard your words in the distance, I wanted it all to end, I wanted the pain to stop, and I wanted to feel the release of this life. But I heard you Keira, your words saved me. What seemed impossible now doesn’t seem so harsh. It will take some time and I know I will have a long road ahead, but with the strength you have given me, nothing seems hard or impossible.
I remember once you told me that the hardest thing to do in this world is to live in in. And that I had to live not for myself but for the people that I love. And that I promise to you. Cause like you told me. Good memories can save your life.
Natalie & Keira.
You're gone away; You don't feel me here anymore.